The most important day in my life

Today's the 31st of August and I've promised myself that I'll finalize my decision on what course I'll be taking by this month. Well, of course this is the decision which will affect the rest of my life. I've planned to take up medicine in IMU. Hopefully I'll be able to get into that university and if I can't, I seriously don't know what I should take up anymore. I'm really tired of having to decide what I want to do. Of course I'm stressed out. Millions of questions kept flowing in and out of my mind unanswered. What if I'm not able to get into IMU? What if my results aren't good enough to get me into that course? Will I be able to pass those examinations awaiting me when I'm in that course? Am I actually capable of taking up the responsibilities and duties which I have to carry on my shoulders in the future? and etc...

I really hope that this is the best decision for me. God, please lead me. Lead me through because that is what I want to do right now. I hope everything goes smooth..Most importantly, guide me through.

zombie-like

Oh crap. I woke up this morning and guess what. I HAD A HEADACHE AND IT FELT AS IF MY HEAD WAS GOING TO BURST! lol. I was just exaggerating, but I did have a headache. My brain was so heavy when I woke and I don't feel like waking up at all. However, I did. What to do.. I have to wake up anyway...

When I woke up, I looked into the mirror and... I was like WHAT! DID I JUST SEE A ZOMBIE IN THE MIRROR!!! MY EYES!!!

By the way, I slept at 10.30 the day before and I had no idea why my eyes are still so swollen. I had no IDEA AT ALL! Bad day with runny nose and zombie-look....

Here I am, again

Well, it's like I've not been in contact with my blog for years! I would just like to express everything here. Guess only a few will be visiting my page, but who cares.

I just want to thank God that I've successfully made a decision on what I want to do in the future. Medicine. I'm not sure whether it is the best choice for me, but there's no harm trying? I'm sure that my parents will be really proud of me if I'm able to do it. I did hesitate at first. Ugh...What am I doing, getting back to the same old point.

I'm afraid I'll give up. I don't want to if possible.

Trials is just around the corner, and I don't want to waste it just like that. I'll be striving to get good grades. I'll try my best. No more disappointments. Yes, disappoint no more.

There's one thing which I'm afraid of letting go. Medicine might not lead me to what I hope will happen, what I wish would happen. The chance will just slip out of my hand anyway.... Why on earth do I make that decision anyway......Well, there's no doubt that we might meet again in the future, but people do change ; How I wished we don't. But in the reality, we do. Just that what we get in the end will not be as good as the ones we have right now.. I believe that once the string is cut and tied on different places, you can never ever get them back together again.....