Thanks...

Thanks for everything. Thanks for a birthday cake once again. Thanks for the time. Thanks for everything. Really, everything. I apologize for the tears and moody mood.

THANKS......

Yep, It will all soon be memories. All too soon..

Swimming pool again! yehhhh~~

Whoops. I went swimming quite frequent recently. Love it.

I had a great time and I would like to express it here. I've never had such great times with my friends, even with my high school friends. This place had definitely carved a wonderful memory in me. Carved real deep inside.

I really really appreciate it. I'll be losing all of them real soon. 25th. and it's already the 19th now. We might not meet again.... How fast. I really don't want to let go if I really could, but I believe that if God wants us to meet again, we will. We definitely will. Oh, I wonder if I could ever meet such a good and caring friend again in my life. Thus, they will definitely always stay in my memory. Ta...

Directions.....

The nearer the date gets, the more you want to spend time together. It just leaves you in agony knowing that the more time we spend together, the more heavy hearted I'll get. You want to get together as often as possible so much that you didn't think of how you'll feel in the end. This is just so pathetic, suffering. All of us will turn in different bend of road, leaving one by one towards a brand new road we're about to travel. But this is life. God made it such. God always have a purpose. Trust in Him, will I?

From the Bible

I read Luke 6 27-38. I love it... I was facing problems like that and it really opens my eyes.

He said, 30 'Give what you have to anyone who asks you for it: and when things are taken away from you, don't try to get them back. Do for others as you would like them to do for you.'

28 Pray for the happiness of those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn the other cheek. If someone demands your coat, offer your shirt also.

Sometimes, it is just so hard for me to do what God wants me to do. I just felt like I don't have the strength. How I wished I could really really follow and please Him.

I want and I really want. There's nothing I can change.. It's just fate, and if there's really a chance, I doubt if fate would again bring it back to me.

Lord I felt so awful right now...

I felt so awful. There's so many things buried deep down in my heart. There are so many things which I want to change Lord, so many.

How I wished. I wished You would let me learn to put all my trust on You Lord..There are so many things which I doubt.

I am afraid, I appreciate at the same time, and I don't want to have it because I don't want to lose it.....

Mamak time....

FUh....after a tiring day of studying, here we go 'mamak-ing' again. yeah~~

It was a stress-release thing to do. Food and laughters...... I might not be able to hear the same one again.... I'll miss it so much. =[

Finals is just 3 more days away. Time flies. That's what I always say, but I still want to say it because it somehow makes so much sense to me.

Inspired......

I just came back from college today. It was really a tiring day, well having to study for like, the whole day? But, I did come back for a break, and that 'break' was actually too long.

Then I suddenly have the urge to read 'someone's ' blog. I clicked.

Well then, I realized. It's been quite some time since I really focus on God. Why?

I was quite inspired by what she wrote. I was so busy nowadays that I almost forgot that God is always there. I really loved hanging out with my housemates and friends recently. Went out for supper and talked. I really do appreciate those. Really. I love all of them, and I forgot about God. How could I?

I really do want to try to get back to Him.

I was quite worried about what I should do recently. Bothered over some problems of education, but now i realized, I should not worry. For God said, why worry now? let tomorrow have it's own worries. I should believe. Like how God had guided me to this house here, giving me all these awesome human beings whom I can share my thoughts with. It was definitely a perfect plan. I believe He has greater plans for me. I know He has. I know deep in my heart......

Finals is just a few days away.... awwww. stressed! But those people that God gave just takes my stress away at the end of the day.....=]

Swimming pool

Well, got to say I had fun today. Not very fun, but well, fun. =]

I went swimming in My Place's pool today. I was surprised myself. I used to think that the water there is super dirty. It wasn't. It just got cleaned today. Lucky.=]

Well, I did not exactly swam. haha, but I had fun just walking round here and there soaking wet and splashing water. It was rather boring I had to say because there were only guys. Well, please don't think that it was rather inappropriate and indecent of me. I was sort of forced to. I did not intend to get wet to my pants. Thanks to William. ==! Cyndi was there too but too bad she couldn't join. She went back at 11pm. By the way, we went swimming at 10.30!!!! Oh crap. This was my first time doing this, swimming in a pool at night. Swimming with the guys was rather fun. I know what you'll think. So not decent of me, but I had to say that I thought so too. However, all of the friends there were, well, they're decent. haha. What else can I say. It wasn't really that improper anyway.

Anyway, we splashed and we soaked. I went back earlier because it was rather boring for me being the only girl there. Excuse me, what else can I do except to walk in the water following the same boring path... So, I went back home without my towel. ==! I had to say that I was freaking cold when I was walking back that dark lane; soaking wet, cold wind. Hopefully I would not get sick. I had fun. =]

Barbeque

Yeah, yeah...Imitating me eating watermelon...==
The two in the spotlights of the night!


Haha...love this picture. Wil's extraordinary smelly feet!
The two sweetie pies! hahha
This picture reminds me of HAPPINESS!
UUUUh....barbequeing
In the spotlight
The food

In the spotlight

Yeah! We had barbeque on the 9th of October! It was a Saturday night. By the way, I had the greatest time in Subang. It was to celebrate CK's and Cyndi's birthday. They had a surprise anyway, especially Cyndi. When we brought out the cake, she was still a bit blur because she thought it was only to celebrate CK's birthday. She sang along and ha! till she heard her name sang out as well.

Participants: me, Cyndi, Chien Keong, William, Kherr Siong, Lawrence, Weizry, John, Khar Ming and Jason. Here are some photos. Thanks to all of them for making it a memorable moment. It was indeed a really cool experience for me...=]

By the way, we had crazy times spreading the cakes all over our faces. Crazy peeps.

Special thanks to William actually. He made me realize how important it is to spend more time with all of them together in this last one month. Can't believe it actually. There's only one month left!! I knew then that what he said was actually true. All of us might not be able to meet again in the future. It's great to spend more time with all these great people whom I think we'll only meet once in a lifetime. It's great to know that we actually meet them before and they exist in our memory. It's great anyway, real great...=]

I dare to say out loud that I've learnt a lot in this one year. Less than one year actually. =] Despite improving academically, I too improved in terms of humanity. My housemates were those special ones whom I would like to dedicate my thanks to. They were all great and I've learnt most from them, all of them. We shared and most importantly, we cared! There were times where we talked till the middle of the night and it was either I can't wake up or my eyes got worse the next day. They helped and advice in times as well. They really made my day.

pictures of togetherness... =]

One word...SWEET~! haha

lol. love this picture. freakin funny

Everyone's here, except for me.... =[, cus i'm holding the cam
14 glass of drinks for 4 PERSON!!!!!

Great

Oh crap. I had such a great time these few days. It was definitely tiring. Guess what, we went to Sunway during our 3 hours break for 2 days consecutively. That was pure crazy. Thanks to my classmates...== They are crazy peeps. Seriously. By the way, who on Earth would walk across the bridge to ss14 just to take lunch for AN HOUR break.....

Well, we'll be going to Sunway again tomorrow. Skipping chemistry class ; the class which none of us ever wish to attend. But I'm the exception anyways. hahahah. I really felt bad, but I had to follow the majority. So, I'll be skipping it as well. No blame on me. lol...

For the first day of going to Sunway, we went to Kim Gary. Then walked and walked and walked and that's it..== How lame. Went to Sunway just to eat. Actually we planned to watch movie in that 3 hours as well. hahahah. However, we might be late for class and there's no movies for us during that period and we had to skip 2 classes if we were to watch. That is why the plan failed and we went back to college.

On the second day, we went there to take our lunch as well. Some played bowling and some of us walked around hunting for dresses for our corroborree. I walked by the way.

About tomorrow, guess what we'll do! We'll be singing! ugh. I can't wait for it... Looking forward, but the problem is... my pocket. Spending money is like water leaking out from taps these few days. 2 of my friend's birthday is just around the corner and there goes my money again. Doubt if I can survive with that amount of allowance. Crap....

It's done

I did not just break the glass....I shattered it..I shattered it...

guidance here....

I'm going to do something which will be hurting to someone today. I'm not sure whether I should do it O Lord. I'm not sure... I've never done this before and Lord, I hope that You will guide me in my words Lord, I pray that you will give me wisdom of the right thing which should be said and done. I hope I'm doing the right thing because in the end Lord, I don't want anything more than a weird relationship between us. I'm still not sure whether I should be doing this O Lord. Be with me, guide me through. I really hope that I won't say anything hurting. I hope that he won't feel bad or be sad Lord, because his finals are just around the corner. I'm not so sure if I'll be affecting his studies and results Lord, and I hope I won't because I don't want to be the thorn anymore, Lord. Not anymore..... I wish he'll be able to study much better and well after that Lord. I'm nervous. I'm afraid. I want to get away with that, but I don't think I can...

I broke my own glass. Instead of letting others shatter it, why not do it yourself..

or...did I just broke someone's glass? Maybe it's not mine anyway....

Time flies

Not to be forgotten, we still have Prisca!! =]

Awww...Look at every single one of them, laughing so happily.

It's 4 days away from my trials. Time passes by so quickly huh? I've not realized that I've only approximately 7 more weeks left after my trials! 7 more weeks, 7 more mondays. Only 7 more mondays. It's really short.

I'll be leaving soon and I already felt heavy hearted right now. I'll miss everyone so much that words can't explain the emptiness which will engulf me later on. There's no doubt that I'll cry; I know I will.

Those whom I'll miss the most are my housemates! I've been spending the whole year with all of them! Can you imagine, when you were 5, you have a newborn sister. After a year, though she was only a year old, you know how much you actually love her. Take another example. You were born and you have an elder sister whose age was 2. When you were 1, you don't really know what was happening and crying was the only thing you knew. You do cry when she leaves. It's the same thing here, but what I'm dealing with is a bunch of people like me; who knows what's happening all around and matured enough to think of what's happening.

I'll miss you guys so much that I'll cry my eyes out when I leave.

I'm missing all of you already....

Freaking bored

Ugh....I'm back into my hostel in Subang. No one's here, well except for Droovi. It's real boring here. Where's everyone. I hate holidays. =( I've got to get back to study and I'm feeling really lazy right now. Besides getting so bored that I'm blogging here, I'm feeling depressed. Where's my math solution book?!!! I'll need to repay the library for losing it. Really stressful to lose a book. Didn't know how it felt before this. Me? Being a librarian lost a library's book now?!!!! ugh...come on.

Well, it's not like I'm too lazy or what, I just don't feel like doing anything right now. I just don't have the mood. Can someone help me with this?

I'm confused. IMU or Monash. What should I do? Where should I go? By the way, I've decided to take up medicine. =] I hope I can manage it. Guys, do pray for my success yeah!

The most important day in my life

Today's the 31st of August and I've promised myself that I'll finalize my decision on what course I'll be taking by this month. Well, of course this is the decision which will affect the rest of my life. I've planned to take up medicine in IMU. Hopefully I'll be able to get into that university and if I can't, I seriously don't know what I should take up anymore. I'm really tired of having to decide what I want to do. Of course I'm stressed out. Millions of questions kept flowing in and out of my mind unanswered. What if I'm not able to get into IMU? What if my results aren't good enough to get me into that course? Will I be able to pass those examinations awaiting me when I'm in that course? Am I actually capable of taking up the responsibilities and duties which I have to carry on my shoulders in the future? and etc...

I really hope that this is the best decision for me. God, please lead me. Lead me through because that is what I want to do right now. I hope everything goes smooth..Most importantly, guide me through.

zombie-like

Oh crap. I woke up this morning and guess what. I HAD A HEADACHE AND IT FELT AS IF MY HEAD WAS GOING TO BURST! lol. I was just exaggerating, but I did have a headache. My brain was so heavy when I woke and I don't feel like waking up at all. However, I did. What to do.. I have to wake up anyway...

When I woke up, I looked into the mirror and... I was like WHAT! DID I JUST SEE A ZOMBIE IN THE MIRROR!!! MY EYES!!!

By the way, I slept at 10.30 the day before and I had no idea why my eyes are still so swollen. I had no IDEA AT ALL! Bad day with runny nose and zombie-look....

Here I am, again

Well, it's like I've not been in contact with my blog for years! I would just like to express everything here. Guess only a few will be visiting my page, but who cares.

I just want to thank God that I've successfully made a decision on what I want to do in the future. Medicine. I'm not sure whether it is the best choice for me, but there's no harm trying? I'm sure that my parents will be really proud of me if I'm able to do it. I did hesitate at first. Ugh...What am I doing, getting back to the same old point.

I'm afraid I'll give up. I don't want to if possible.

Trials is just around the corner, and I don't want to waste it just like that. I'll be striving to get good grades. I'll try my best. No more disappointments. Yes, disappoint no more.

There's one thing which I'm afraid of letting go. Medicine might not lead me to what I hope will happen, what I wish would happen. The chance will just slip out of my hand anyway.... Why on earth do I make that decision anyway......Well, there's no doubt that we might meet again in the future, but people do change ; How I wished we don't. But in the reality, we do. Just that what we get in the end will not be as good as the ones we have right now.. I believe that once the string is cut and tied on different places, you can never ever get them back together again.....

HIIIAAAAAAK~!!!!!!!

Cool. Here I am, back here blogging after 2 months. hahaha.

It has been kinda fun being in Taylors. MMm Mmm. Thanks to all my friends here which made my day! To all my friends in Ipoh, don't worry! I still miss you guys lots! =DDDD
There are always assignments and test to do, but doing it is sometimes quite fun.
ahhhhh... Seriously, I have nothing else to write about..! Stop here then! I'll blog again when I'm free! =D